Something that I've been reminding myself lately is that the small wins build momentum and that resting does not make me lazy. I've also come to fully understand that fear is only a dead end but faith ALWAYS has a future!
It’s been a whole year and one month of dealing with these constant headaches that Chronic Migraine brings BUT… that has not been my focus. Instead of pitying myself and saying, “Wow, I’ve had to deal with these painful headaches for way too long”, I’ve now allowed myself to focus on the NOW and the great progress that’s been made! With abundant resources, medical help, and medication, I can gratefully say that even if I need to continue to deal with headaches, I am and will not be fearful because I am blessed with the resources and people to help me heal. I’ve also come to terms that if my body tells me that I need to take a break or that I need to nap, then I don’t need to shun myself for it or ‘make up for it later’.
If you’re stubborn like me or like to always be productive during the day, grogginess and needing to lay down can be seen as a major setback but REST IS NOT A SETBACK. You are only setting yourself back when you don’t listen to your body. GIVE YOURSELF A BREAK. GO TAKE A NAP THEN CONTINUE ON. IT’S THAT SIMPLE!!!
Last week, I followed up with my Neurologist and we celebrated this victory in my healing journey. Although it took months of patience and shifting my migraine prevention plan, the victory in less frequent and less intense headaches is a HUGE win for me.
Throughout this journey of healing, I can firmly say that if you do all that you can to help yourself (which includes being proactive and seeking help through therapy, ect,) and FULLY putting your trust in God, you WILL get to the other side! One of my favourite scriptures on fear – and is one that has helped me through this healing process – is from the book of Mark where ‘Jesus calmed the storm’:
Mark 4:35 That day when evening came, he said to his disciples, “Let us go over to the other side.” 36 Leaving the crowd behind, they took him along, just as he was, in the boat. There were also other boats with him. 37 A furious squall came up, and the waves broke over the boat, so that it was nearly swamped. 38 Jesus was in the stern, sleeping on a cushion. The disciples woke him and said to him, “Teacher, don’t you care if we drown?”
39 He got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, “Quiet! Be still!” Then the wind died down and it was completely calm.
40 He said to his disciples, “Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?”
41 They were terrified and asked each other, “Who is this? Even the wind and the waves obey him!”
This story absolutely shakes me and reminds me of who God is, ESPECIALLY during the terrible and difficult storms we face. The main message here is that Jesus said that they will get to the other side. He didn’t say that it would be easy. He even SLEPT THROUGH THE STORM for goodness sake. But, what does that tell us? It tells us that we need to continue to have hope and believe that we will get to the other side. And we can do this by putting our trust in God, leaving ALL of our worries, doubts, pains and sadness behind us.
So, I choose to face the truth about myself today and everyday moving forward. I admit and confess that I fear life’s troubles, trials, and tribulations but… so does any other human being. If I don’t fully allow myself to rest when my body needs it, I will never reach the healing that I strive for. My focus remains on the small but MIGHTY VICTORIES.
Oh, and just because my body can’t do more right now, DOES NOT MEAN I AM WORTH LESS.
I encourage you to fill in the blank with what you may be going through right now:
“Thank you [the thing(s) that are troubling you] for putting me in a state where I can have the OPPORTUNITY to face the truth about me. Although you don’t make life easy, you are helping me build character, making me more resilient, and preparing me for the exciting journey ahead!”